How A Week Makes A Difference

It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power – Alan Cohen

So I have just had 9 days off from work, diet..life. I have loved it. I have spent time with my fabulous family, namely in the Motherland of Welsh Wales with my Nannie, my heroine and idol. I had a great time catching up and “potchin’” with her. It came and went all too soon, it’s like a haven down there and I love it.

I also got to catch up with Mrs T2B and spoke at length about the total jealousy that I have going on in regards to her and Mr T moving into their new house in just over a week’s time. She is desperately trying to convince me that I would be able to afford to do the same, alas, until I have a lot more money coming in this is not something that will be on my horizon in the near future. Part of me thinks “Fuck it, just go and rent, it’s good enough for the French…” but then it’s the whole thing of owning a piece of bricks and mortar. Meh. I don’t know.

My mum and I (and my dad) have spent the best part of 2 weeks trying to keep my brother from finding out we were throwing him a small soiree for his birthday (and to cheer him up a little). This happened on Friday night and bravo to everyone involved he didn’t have a clue. His friend, S#2, took him up the road for a pint and my parents jollied around getting furniture out fo the way – I was obviously preening and pampering as I need AT LEAST an hour for full shower hair and make up sesh!

Everyone had arrived and as always congregated in the kitchen, whilst we waited for my dad to arrive back with the boys. In the worst move in surprise party history, we hadn’t anticipated what to do when he actually walked in. So we ended up just standing there in silence as he walked in, said “What the fuck?!” and then walked round and said hello to everyone. AWKWARD TURTLES ALL ROUND!

The awkwardness aside I ended up having a really good time. Got to spend time with family friends and the BFF (wish you’d come out with up 😦 ) and see my brother genuinely made up that people had bothered to take the time to do this for him. I went out with him, his friends and one of their girlfriends, town was dead and I had a fantastic night. Desperados and Jagerbombs all round….ahem. Hopefully I’ll be able to join them again soon.

This week I have let go. I have eaten and drunk whatever the hell I wanted, not only because it’s my holiday and I’ll do what the bloody hell I like but also because I wanted to see what would happen. I have put on 5 pounds – nearly half of what I had lost. This is gutting, but what I expected.

I will be continuing on Monday, firstly with a goal to lose that 5lbs, but also I would like to have lost 1 stone 9lbs by 17th March..I know that seems a weird figure but it would mean I’m in the next “band” if you will, it’s a goal anyway.

Even though I have been doing this for 5 weeks now, I don’t physically look like I’ve lost that much. I think because I was a stone heavier to begin with than the last time I started a program, hopefully I will now start to see a difference.

Buying size 20s in Primark does not encourage the healthy lifestyle, but buying a top from Miss Selfridge that I wore on Friday was certainly encouraging. This is why I don’t judge my weight loss on clothes fitting me as some of my friends do – one day I’m a 14 the next I’m a 20 – how is that even possible?!

Onwards, to the next stage. Back at work tomorrow. Hopefully with a more positive attitude than when I left a week last Friday 🙂

Zx

Song for today – My Boo, Friends. Getting obsessed with this band, they really remind me of Do Me Bad Things. And this cover version is faboooosh.

Video of the day – In honour of the Superbowl

Requests – Grumpy Bear pleeeeease lets catch up, Patsy another night like last Saturday please (champagne bar and m20? YES!), BFF book a hotel for Amsterdam!!!

Love Love Love – This whole trend (thanks BFFSIL!)

xxx

How I Think It’s Time For Some Good Vibes

How do I climb up on out of this funk I’m in? – Sam Sparro

Life is sucky. These last few weeks it seems to be one thing after another for bad news, had some more today.  Maybe not news that has affected me personally, but just bad news that upsets the people around me.

I hope the universe has some fricking good shit around the corner for me and mine, please some engagements, marriages and babies in the pipeline for us to celebrate! 2012 has not got off to the amazing start that I had hoped.

Have been off today so have mainly been making soup and lounging around. Favourite activities! Soup was sweet potato and chilli; it has a definite kick to it, yum scrum. I don’t have another 9am start until Saturday – what bliss!

I am currently watching The Vicar of Dibley, I needed some joyful goodness crap, and I think I will follow it with a bit of Bridget (a staple for Patsy –aka Granny Pants – and me. Nothing like Bridget to get me out of a funk.

Was supposed to meet the Policeman and BFF tomorrow but it is not to be as they are meeting early and I am working till 9pm. I miss them both and I hate that I don’t get to see them half as much as I would like, but the Boy especially. Fricking restrictive career choice. I hope our trip to NZ comes off. We think we’ll be the most perfect travelling partners as we know when to leave each other alone. And we have a mutual appreciation for The Boosh and The Conchords.

BFF and I are off to Amsterdam in March so we shall discover then if we can travel together, I think we’ll be ok. We need to book a hotel ASAP; any suggestions send them this way as we are both totally clueless as to where we need to go!

Patsy and I are busy planning the #lostweekend that will take place at the end of January. Grill on the Alley, Harvey Nicks and Crazy Wendy’s are being bandied about, all of which are super appealing to little old me. Can’t wait for staycation…2 weekends, 4 late nights and 1 wedding to go!

Diet has been hard today; I think the problem is that when I’m at home on my day off all I want to do is eat. And eat. And eat. Turns out we didn’t eat all of the Christmas food that Mummy Dearest bought, I haven’t made a start on it but now I know it’s there I will probably turn to it in some moment of weakness.

Hence my plan to just not be in the house! Or to be in bed when I am in the house…I need plans and I need them fast! Cinema this weekend – methinks that carrot sticks and plain popcorn may have to be smuggled in, I am after all a sucker for picnmix. Going to relish Fri, Sat and Sun night’s off-bliss.

Please be sending positive vibes out into the world whenever you can, you never know when you’re going to be needing them back…

Totes La’erz

Zx

All loves to: The Policeman, Patsy, Grumpy Bear, BFF

Song of the Day: When I’m Alone – Lissie

Quote of the day: “Come the fuck on, Bridget”

Hoping: I get to see people soon.

Must: Book my train tickets tomorrow!!